To make something different

How stubborn to me !
I think I start to being jealousy again!
And get a defect which lack of confidence.
But it's the power always push me forward.
Try to promote myself, Try to awesome front of friends.
Just look back what I had owned at past.
What I still seeking for?
what kind of success I want?
To talk the truth,
I wasn't born with gifted talent.
I wasn't live in a rich family.
I was a really local person living at countryside.
Life as simple as imaging which is citizen's dream after retire.
I still get a pure heart to waiting.
But I query the promise after the time passing.
No matter the end and forcing myself to keep on the right path.